Why is it….

I can get so frustrated with myself sometimes! I seem to so easily fall into the same horrid routines…even when I TRY to avoid said routines! Why?!?!

Why is it that when I long to make new friends, I tend to lock myself indoors?
Why is it that when I start a new study, I hide the book from myself?
Why is it that when I have the opportunity to share the Gospel, I change the subject?

This is just a few of the questions I ask myself regularly. How about you?

Looking at things, from a Peretti perspective. Is there an epic battle occurring around me daily? Angel vs Demon…Light vs Dark…Good vs Evil
Do I ever lend a hand to cast the shadows away? More often than not, the answer is no.
How often, truly, has that evil influence won me over? Sat me down to do nothing, maybe cause me to pity myself, or provided the thought…”I’ll have time later.”

How often I am deceived! Why, when I so desire to do good?!? Why??

” 14-16I can anticipate the response that is coming: “I know that all God’s commands are spiritual, but I’m not. Isn’t this also your experience?” Yes. I’m full of myself—after all, I’ve spent a long time in sin’s prison. What I don’t understand about myself is that I decide one way, but then I act another, doing things I absolutely despise. So if I can’t be trusted to figure out what is best for myself and then do it, it becomes obvious that God’s command is necessary.

17-20But I need something more! For if I know the law but still can’t keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, I obviously need help! I realize that I don’t have what it takes. I can will it, but I can’t do it. I decide to do good, but I don’t really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don’t result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time.

21-23It happens so regularly that it’s predictable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up. I truly delight in God’s commands, but it’s pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge.

24I’ve tried everything and nothing helps. I’m at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Isn’t that the real question?

25The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different.”
Romans 7:14-25 (The Message)

Oh, thank You, Abba Father!! Thank You, for seeing through my imperfections! Thank You for Your Perfect Son, Your Perfect LOVE, Your Perfect Understanding!!! You give me hope when I deserve none! You give me peace when I am stressed! All of my sin, selfish desires, will never change the fullness of You in my heart!!! Retain full control of it, direct my path, it’s Yours and Yours alone!!!


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